Friday, July 25, 2008

What a week

Shit! I woke up late and completely missed the gym session, leaving only Wanting + Mel there! Could've smashed myself against the wall or something, feel like the worst person on earth): I'm super sorry to the both of you!! Ultra x 10000 sorry! I don't know what happened to me though, found myself on my parents' bed.. And found that I slept through my alarm. Roar! Super upsetting! Did I sleepwalk there in the middle of the night?

>:(

I thought it was finally the end of a super hard, insomniac week. Guess it was not to be. I hope this week ends fast and the next is better to live/get through.

Feel like I'm losing control and losing myself :S I must get a grip before everything just spirals out of control. Need the fire back in me, I think it was doused by tears (at the risk of sounding cheesy) Keep finding myself a little disoriented. I'm angry and impatient at what's happening to me!
(Oh plus the payment for the Nike Run was screwed so I guess I won't be taking part in it anymore! Another huge negative point for the week. Stupid.)
#@)$% Ok start slow. I need to get myself back on track. And also for my studies. And most importantly, I need to begin playing again like I have in the past, with even more determination and hunger for the win. Can't let myself and the team down.
I can I can I can I can I must do it.
This is a stupid "crisis".