Hope

Dangles on a string

Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye And roped me in
So mesmerizing, And so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am

Fear builds up inside of me as I fall into another pitfall. What is it in me that is missing? I keep hoping, I have hoped for years. Now the final chance presents itself to me in 44 days, and I am rendered helpless. I don't want to bring my team down, I really want to be the best that I can; ever.

So clear Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

So scared that it's not that I won't do it, it's that I can't, that it's not in me. That would be the worst blow ever): But I'm going to keep believing myself, I will give myself the benefit of the doubt. I'm going to keep pulling myself up, one step after another. I'm going to bide my time, slowly and surely.

I'm really quite scared that I can't be what I want to be and that crazy fear makes me cry. I will keep fighting! I want it so, so, so, so, so badly.

Slight hope, Dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

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